Wednesday, April 11, 2007

going to church

Me and the family went to church Sunday, Easter morning. I ain’t one to go much at all. My older son goes..too much. Well, I won’t say that. I’m proud of him. I wish I had it in me. I just don’t. I was unmoved on Sunday…and not because Joe the preacher was “dry as toast”. He’s a good preacher. I just felt entirely out of place. I mean, I look over and there’s a guy in an American flag dress shirt and mullet. (sigh!) I mean, I ain’t prejudice against rednecks or nothin’ but these ain’t my folks y’all.
I use the excuse that I can’t sit there that long, and a lot of that is true. There’s just so many questions, ya know? Even Nathan, (now granted he hadn’t taken his medicine that day and he sometimes gets morbid without) had his questions. “I just don’t know if it’s true or not...” said the soon to be 11 year old. Man that’s heavy on a young boy’s mind. Hell, an old man’s too! I guess if you pinned me down and beat me until I confessed I would say that I'm more down with the God idea than I am with the Jesus one. I ain't doubting Jesus, mind you, but he ain't the first one that I'm gonna thank after I win some National Championship.
All I know is that I don’t know, but I thank him, somebody!.. every day that I have my family and friends and that I get to play with the OakTeam and The Yayhoos!


Anonymous said...

I know what you're talking about. Think of Jesus as a man who gave a great example. Read the Bible in the context of the time and place the stories were written. This may help you in giving religion a place in your life. Well, that did it for me. You can doubt and still have faith, in my opinion.

Anonymous said...

And??????Sheesh! I just went to a funeral for a former business partner and 'friend' that I knew for 22 years. he too was not religious and his family insisted upon making his service a "Jesus Christ" event. have lost several other friends who felt the same way in file but whose families took over their services and, to my way of thinking, did them and their closest friends a disservice by insisting upon making their last memories an effort at converting the agnostic. As "Spinal Tap" says-too much fucking perspective. TAKE A DAMN DRANK!!!! And say hey to Chappy fer me.